Realisation

 

I always new Gods Grace is for everyone and it is definitely for my students. Something happened to one of my students that really shocked me as an educator. I know at times people/kids bottle feelings, hurt and suffering inside and when triggered it can cause one to have a very explosive outburst where they become the bad guy from the people around him perspective. Doesn't mean to be so offensive with language and grouped negative words but it was festering for very long time. Its like a rat that has been restricted to a significant small area of space. Where does the rat go? the only way it knows which is down! 

My students are going through some serious emotional roller-coasters and I need to stop being that teacher that thinks everything will be fixed with a telling off or a lecturer but realise these students need an understanding heart to heart but also a good listening ear. I get so caught up in the business of the curriculum, planning, leading and forget that students need this space where we can talk about issues or emotions they are going through and finding hard to navigate for themselves. That strict mentality of a teacher yes there is a place for it but it is not going to work for all struggling students. 

This leads me to my boys in class, Aj, Luvino and Christony. I honestly do not know what to do to turn these youngs around to becoming more leadership focused where they can manage themselves and their behaviours in class and outside of class. The growling is not working for these boys. I think I know why its because thats all they get at home. They are use to it and coming to school and getting growling from is not helping them and not helping me.  At times you got to humble yourself and say these boys are not responding well to my behaviour management. My own daughters respond to it but this does not necessarily mean my students will. This is going to a challenging one for me but all I know is that I have to figure out what I am going to do to turn it around for these boys. They have already created this stigma where there a disapproval of them already. They are being talked about being the boys who cause a lot of the trouble when you continue to make the wrong choices you leave a stain that is hard to rub out unless you can prove youself and get that trust. We as teachers all love hearing teachers say "Luvino has really found his feet this year" or "Christony has really clamed down and realise he needs to grow up" but there needs to be intervention. The question is what?